Tom's on vacation....

This is the first day the kids are back in school from winter break.  The house is quiet again, except...Tom took vacation from work.  Don't get me wrong I love him dearly, but damn I didn't realize I had such a routine.  He is trying to help, the dishwasher was loaded and running when I woke up at 6am this morning!!  I just have a certain order I handle the hectic mornings with the kids, it might not be the most productive way there is to get everyone up and ready, but it's "my" way and the kids are used to it.  I haven't been home with Tom on weekdays in years.  So it's really throwing me for a loop, I should be enjoying the company, and help with Tyler.  He is off to rent a few movies right now, don't know how we are going to sit down and watch a movie together...Tyler will be up in about a 1/2 hour...Nik will be home from school by 2 and Ashley will be home by 3 and Tommy at 3:30.......It is a nice thought though..I'm thinking he has already figured out that I don't just sit on the couch and eat bon bons all day...Tyler is a full time job by himself.

2010....

2009 is over, in a way I am glad.  This past year was the hardest I can remember.  With the bed rest with my pregnancy..with the diagnosis of CF with Ty.. to problems with my older kids in school, My relationship with my husband, My mother being on oxygen at home..cause of copd and emphysema...2009 sucked. Wondering what is in store for me in 2010.  My dad always told me "what doesn't kill ya makes you stronger" I must be one tough chick!!!!  I am thankful that all the bumps in the road this year have made me realize whats really important in life. When I tell people that Ty has Cystic Fibrosis I hate the responses that I get.  Its either "I'm so sorry"  or " I don't know how you deal with that, I couldn't handle it..." It makes me angry.  I honestly don't know what  the appropriate thing to say is  but don't be sorry, don't give me your condolences, I haven't suffered a loss.  I don't view Ty having CF as that.  I am blessed to have been given such a wonderful family, I will not let "statistics" ruin that.  My family is the most important thing to me...and the thing 2009 has taught me the most is to cherish every minute ...